Yep. I’ve been MIA for a reason. After finding out in January that my husband’s job was relocating him (at the time we didn’t know where) I found myself in a not-so-great place. I was pissed to be frank and then felt guilty at the same time because this was a GREAT opportunity for my husband. I was happy with the way things were, very happy with work, and we were starting to plan things out for baby no. 2. Now we had to move – away from family, from work, from friends, from the BEACH?! Ugh. Yeah, not thrilled. I even contemplated not moving – making things work long-distance. Why would I give up such a perfect situation?! My mother watches Navy while my husband and I are at work, something I am SO grateful for. My sister lives right down the road (basically). My job is awesome: I work with great people, I have a great boss, and the benefits are great too. Not so common to come by – trust me I know. My friends that I’ve had for years are here. PLUS I’ve always wanted to stay ‘home.’ I stayed at home and went to college rather than ‘going away’ for this reason. I didn’t take promotions at my previous job for this same reason. I just have a need to be close to family.
That’s where my head was at. I’m better now – ready for a new phase and adventure. But I’m still struggling with something. Balance. I’m the kind of girl that wants it all. I want the family, the job, the life. I’ve always wanted a career, always loved to work. I want that corner office with floor to ceiling windows. BUT I’ve always wanted a family and be involved with my children. After having Navy I realized how strong this pull was. I was torn between wanting to be home with Navy and wanting to get back to work. If it weren’t for my mother being able to care for Navy (the only other person I know that would care for her like I would), I would have stayed at home. With the move, I’m basically being forced to stay at home or put Navy in daycare – something I’m not really happy about. So, for now, this working momma (who’s had a steady job since she was 14) is going to attempt to be a Stay at Home Mom (SAHM). I’m excited but totally terrified at the same time. WTF I’m I going to do with myself – and WTF am I going to do with Navy so that we don’t end up driving each other crazy?! I know how big of a job being a SAHM is. So, I’m not going into this thinking it’s going to be all rainbows and sunshine. Any tip or tricks from current stay at home moms would be greatly appreciated! AND, what about money? I’ve always made my own. I like being able to buy things I want without having to ask or feel guilty for spending money that I didn’t earn. I’ve been looking into ways to make money from home – so we’ll see (more blogging is definitely on my list). I’ve got a mean shopping habit that I’m not exactly willing to give up, so I need to make some money to fund that habit.
Anyway, there’s my long
rant explanation for why I’ve been so absent, not just from my blog but from life. I tend to go total introvert when I’m stressed and have a lot on my plate. You’ll be seeing more posts soon — as of next week, this Florida girl will be living in Tennessee with a lot more time to kill!
If y’all know of any fun places to go in Tennessee, let me know!
PS: Here are a few pictures from Easter! Totally unrelated to this post but too cute not to share.